Ben Wang

2011-06-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

Now i know why Jesus went into the wilderness to seek and pray to God. Its really very different from when u lie on your bed and pray or walk around in your room full of distractions. For me to be truthful haha i would rather play my computer games... but today i decided to take a walk to the park behind my house for a run. As i begin my journey walking to the park alot of things came to my mind, as usual when u are alone... you will think of alot of things, and as i begin to run, i had alot of things in my mind but as time pass i ask myself who am i running for in this race in life. Who am i running to meet at the end of my life. And of course the correct answer is Jesus, but we are all human we wont always run for Jesus, some parts of our lives we may fall and run for other things but we try our best to keep on track. As i run i keep pushing myself to run faster, i got very tired and my left shoulder aches alot... in life there will be many painful moments that though u feel pain you still have to run through with it and just keep pushing yourself to run to finish the race. And after every pain you go through you come out stronger... after every run when you push yourself ur muscle aches, it takes time to recover and when it does recover you become stronger. After finish running when i begin to walk back... as usual as a human being after every exercise session you will look at your progress hoping that it will take effect immediately... i begin to look down at my tummy to see if its smaller... but who am i trying to kid around with LOL... life is about consistency... there are no short cuts in life. If everything was a short cut what are you living for... no competition in life you wont realise your true potential... i thank God that He has showed me all this things to me. I know these things are simple.. but it really means alot to me. At the end of the road i want to see Jesus.

2011-05-30T20:11:00.001-07:00

yesterday i ran 40 mins on the tread mill and i feel good.

2011-05-02T00:19:00.000-07:00

Today i sprint 9 minutes on speed 7.

2 sets of 15 right hand weight 7.5kg
2 sets of 15 left hand weight 7.5kg
3 sets of 5 right hand weight 5kg
3 sets of 5 left hand weight 5kg

constant sit ups

2010-07-21T11:57:00.001-07:00

hello

2010-01-25T08:22:00.000-08:00

3.5 miles / 0.994miles times 1.2km = 4.22km

Thank God

2009-10-26T04:12:00.000-07:00

Finally i got 36/ 40 for something.... thank God

Nsmen

2009-09-04T07:00:00.000-07:00

haha i am taking that no one ever reads my blog anymore, so in a way i am really typing this for myself. Telling myself what i have been through last 2 weeks.

Well i was called back to do my reservist for 18 days. Our unit was being evaluated by the army for 4 days and 4 nights while we did ongoing missions. I took on the role as a section commander with 6 men under me but this time round only 3 reported back. They were Jacky, Chee seng and Chai. It was hard getting to know them at first because they are like way older than me. They were like all 10-13 years older than me but nevertheless i did get to know them and they are good men. I learn about the jobs they have outside and i really enjoyed being around them. As the days go by i got to know most of the people in the platoon and they are all good men. I joked around with them they joked around with me, it was all good fun. They all communicate in hokkien and chinese. I got closer to the platoon during the 4 days and 4 nights because of the things that we have to endure together outfield. I tell you this is the most siong outfield i have ever been to my entire life in the army haha. Well we went through it anywayz... first day we left camp at night and we took the vehicle to a jungle and we started to dig, each person has to dig one hole for himself. And the place where i was digging was like all stones. Everyone else finished digging within 2 hours. But me and Jacky was still digging, we dug for like 4 hours, in the end we stopped and we went to sleep. Next morning was a bit relaxed because all we have to do is stay in the hole and defend. We cooked noodles and stuff drinked milo it was like a picnic LOL. then it rained for like the whole afternoon, everyone was super sian. Then came night where we set off for our first mission, we started walking at 10pm and stopped walking at 6am. By the time we finished the mission it was like 12pm. After the success of our first mission we did a defence again from about 1pm to like 8pm. Then after that we changed into new clothes had dinner and slept from like 10pm to 2am. At 2am we got ready for our 2nd mission and this was the toughest..... it was a 10km walk to the objective, we started off walking at 2am and reached our objective at 830am we waited and slept till 10am when we started attacking. By that time my body was like super weak i never fell so tired before in my life... every step i took was like killing me. I started to think about Jesus, how He took the cross and walked to calvary it was definitely worst than my march. I compared my experience with His. I had blisters with shoes on and it hurts like crazy. I am sure He has blisters too but without any shoes on so it will definitely hurt even more because He was walking on sand and stone. The things i had to carry was heavy and it hurts my back. He had to carry the cross and it was definitely heavier than what i had to carry. The more i compared the more i had the energy to keep on walking. Thank you Jesus for everything you have done for me. By the end of the mission i was super tired everything i did within 2 to 3 minutes i will doze off. haha. super tiring, thirsty and hungry. By the end of these 4 days 4 nights i got to know the men more and i really enjoyed going through this with them. If there happen to be a war i am willing to fight it together with beside them.

When i begin to mix around with these men i begin to realise somethings. I realise that the things that they say, they say it with conviction and they say it because they have experience it before and they know what is going on. They are firm with the decisions that they make and do not think twice about whether its wrong or right, because they know its right.

They are bold and daring, when they give instructions they are clear and firm. When instructions are given you do what it says and not an easier way out. And as a commander you ensure the standards and dont be so "anything also can"

arh there are so many things for you to learn Ben. Till the day when you can really take care of yourself don even think about having someone in your life.

I think God is really shaping me up through these experience. He put me around people who are 28 to 35 years old to show me how real men behave themselves. To show me how they carry themselves.

When i look at myself and look at the way i act and the way i do things i realise i am really quite far from being a real man. I am not saying that i have low self esteem... i am just saying i am aware of all these things. Some of the things that i do really pull down my reputation and some of the things that i say are not clear and not firm. sometimes i am not bold nor daring. sometimes i am afraid of giving instructions, afraid that people wont listen.

But its getting better now. I am changing slowly.

Nevertheless i thank God for these experiences, they make me stronger.

Something that hit me right in the face

2009-07-14T09:57:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to share these with you guys. Hopefully it will help some of you reading it.

Some people may be decieved that they are not good enough. But how many of you know that it is not true.

When oppotunities arises in your life, you begin to say to yourself that you are not ready or you are not good enough for it, that you need some time to improved yourself.

But things happen for a reason, opportunties come to you for a reason. Not by chance but God-given. When God gives you an opportunity He knows you are able to do it but of course not on your own. When God gives you an opportunity He expects you to take it and work with Him.

If you reject the opportunity and give a reason that because you are not good enough or its not your time, then let me ask you a question, when then are you good enough and how do you know its your time?

When God gives you an opportunity you don improve yourself first then take the opportunity but you take the opportunity by faith based on the reason that God is a good God and He will surely be by your side all the way to help you, then while doing that you improve yourself. Of course i am not saying that you go in there blindly and not prepare yourself, you need to at least know what is going on, you do your best and you leave the rest to God.

When God asked Moses to speak to the people, Moses said to God that he wasnt good at speaking. He didnt even have time to improve himself but he did it by faith and God spoke through him.

We need to grab hold of these opportunities. Believe that God will be there with us.

There is a point in life where you tell yourself that you are an adult and you begin to think maturely. You want to change because you need to. It is now or procrastinate.

Taiwan

2009-07-13T09:27:00.000-07:00

Taiwan was really fun... it has been quite some time since i have been overseas so i was really excited for the trip. Bought super alot of stuffs, ate moderately (maybe) and drank everyday one milk tea. it was a great experience and i want to thank my family who provided for me to make this trip happen. and also i want to thank the people that went together, Zhihong Sam and Darice. They are all really fun people to be with :) me and Zhi hong never laughed so much before in our lives, i still remember the photo 123 we look at each other and froze for a moment and HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA. so funny la and you deleted my jump shot....

hahaha and remember we play the bubble (made up of glue) it was so messy la... then we started attacking each other LOL. and not to forget my proness in shooting those balloons...

Yup thats what i can remember for the whole trip. lol... thats all we did in that 7 days.

Thank you all you all have been great fun. :)

Revelation

2009-07-10T10:57:00.000-07:00

Went to the office and caught something really interesting.
How do you work and work and work and keep on keeping on in your ministry and not burn out? Where do you get the passion to do that? Well the answer is to keep getting fresh new revelations from God. Passion is fuelled by new revelations. Have you ever had the feeling of recieving a revelation, you always get so excited to want to share with others. As a cell group leader its crucial to get new revelations all the time, so you are able to feed the members under you. Pst Tan say when you get fresh mana from heaven you recieve it first then pass it down to the people behind you. I was in taiwan and we visited New Life Church and Pst Tan preached his E1R1 message in chinese that week. I was really happy because i was able to understand quite clearly, thank God haha. He was sharing about the illustration about him being a scout and he has to go ahead of the battalion to find a path, and that it was easier to take a path that people have walked before because it is easier. As a scout when you begin to plant those light sticks beside the path, it can symbolise crucial turning points in your life. When you begin to go back to your battalion to lead them to this path it will be much easier because you have gone through this path before. In life its pretty much the same, all the things that have happen in your life good or bad they all add to your experience in life, the more you encounter the more experience you are. It happens for a good reason, it makes you stronger plus you are able to lead people out of it easily because you have gone through it before.

Revelation from God keeps you in line with what God wants to share to you and the people around you. Lets be more excited in recieving new revelations from God.

2009-06-26T14:37:00.000-07:00

Tenth Avenue North - By your side
This song is really encouraging, the lyrics really changes the perspective of how you look at God. Many a times we are always so busy with our daily stuff and we forget that God is always by our side, holding onto us whenever we fall. Sometimes we try so hard to earn God's love and grace, whenever we do something wrong we will have this mindset that God is angry with us but actually... He is not. All He wants us to do is to run back to Him. Don't turn away from Him. Wait upon Him.

Psalms 25

Just For Fun

2009-06-18T10:37:00.001-07:00

ben.wav -

Long time

2009-06-15T10:01:00.000-07:00

Havent been blogging much lately. Quite sian of blogging actually haha. Dont even know what to blog.

Right now i talking to Lai yoong over skype. Was saying how his holidays like no holidays... he still has to stay in hostel to do his chem presentation and stuff... still got dragon boat competition.

This period i am kind of into singing, want to learn alot of new songs. But the lyrics hard to learn because they are in chinese. I have been learning this song called fen bu gu sheng by xiao jin teng. Quite a nice song but hard to sing haha.

Hmmm... what is the next step after this. I know it but yet its hard to do. Sometimes when you know what to do even if you are not sure just try it out you never know what will happen. Do it and leave the rest to God.

Exam

2009-04-29T02:42:00.000-07:00

whoa... my exam is just tomorrow. I really hope i can do well for it. Doing well this time round will really change things around. Its not all about doing well and getting a good job after all. Its doing well and giving your parents a good impression and getting a good job.

I need to go off to study now. Talk to you guys later.

2009-04-22T10:40:00.000-07:00

Today i am suppose to meet my friend at 10am but i woke up at 930am. Still wanted to sleep for a bit more when suddenly a big wind BLEW ALL MY LECTURE NOTES ALL OVER THE ROOM.... AND NOW I HAVE TO ARRANGE THEM IN ORDER .............................. i hate it when this happens. Today i went for RT, ran 3km, pull up push up butterfly kick leg rise... quite siong, hopefully at the end i pass then i dont need to go for phase 2 of the training.

2009-04-12T11:57:00.001-07:00

We live day by day so comfortably, doing our own things not knowing that we are polluting the air and killing the Earth. You realise in the early years man did not worry about this problem until only recently when they found out that global warming is becoming worst and if it's not made aware to the people the earth is going to die.

I read this scripture in Mark 8:34-38 and it kind of portray the same thought

We live day by day so comfortably with our lives doing our own things. Working so hard and getting everything that we want. Not knowing that we are losing our soul as the days go by. That you begin to see that we will not worry about this problem until when the time is almost up, when we are on our deathbed. For global warming it may seem irredeemable but still people are trying their best to reduce it. For our souls, you realise it's never too late to save it, but why wait till old age to realise this. Why not start now?

2009-04-12T11:26:00.000-07:00

Mark 8:18-21
"Having eyes, do you not see? And having ears, do you not hear? And do you not remember?
"When I broke the five loaves for the five thousand, how many baskets full of fragments did you take up?" They say to Him, "Twelve"
"Also, when i broke the seven for the four thousand, how many large baskets full of fragments did you take up?" And they said, "Seven"
So He said to them, "How is it you do not understand?"

Having eyes do you not see the miracles that God has done around you? Having ears do you not hear the testimonies around you? Having a mind, do you not remember what the Lord has done for you? When you are in difficulty always remember what God has done for you in the past. Know that what He has done for you in the past He is able to do the same today, because He is the same yesterday, today and forever.

The question ultimately lies in whether you believe that God is a good God. If you do then how is it that you do not understand? How is it that you do not understand that God can provide you with a miracle? If you believe that God is good, even when you start to doubt, fight against it, tell yourself I DO UNDERSTAND. I DO UNDERSTAND that my God is a good God and He has a great plan for me, a plan that will be implemented at the right timing, not too late nor too early but just in time.

2009-04-04T07:05:00.000-07:00

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2009-03-12T08:53:00.000-07:00

Today i went for my statistics test... i did my best i really hope i can score well. Tomorrow i still have a macro test. haiz.. haha.

Went for cell group today, it was great man. I got to know most of the cg quite fast, its really a new experience. They are so lively and cheerful, so friendly so willing.

2009-03-10T11:47:00.000-07:00

wow.... every week just feels like there are more and more things to do haha.
not that its bad or anything, its good.
I am quite excited, but quite afraid at the same time.
Am i ready? Yes i am.
So many lives in your hands.
You better not fool around too much anymore.
There are still so many things to be done.
There is a time and season for everything.
And i am afraid some of my seasons are longer than required. HA.
Need to allocate properly. or else you will never get anywhere.

Have you ever wonder?

2009-03-08T19:12:00.001-07:00

Have you ever wonder why? When you were a little kid, when you ask your parents for certain things and they don't give it to you? When you begin to cry and you don't understand why your parents are not buying that toy, you really really really like? or when your parents begin to filter all the toys that are safe and keep those toys that might injure you?

At that point of time, at your age, because of your lack of knowledge, you were unable to understand why. But your parents understood why because they have a bigger perspective, with their experience and knowledge they understood. Some things that we think are good for us arent actually good for us. We do not have the bigger perspective of what's going to happen. But our parents do and they know whats best for us. Sometimes we might not understand why but in the future when you look back, you will begin to see that it happened for a reason.

Its the same for God. Luke 11:9-13

2009-03-02T07:31:00.000-08:00

Looking back at when i first started off, i wasnt who i am right now. I am really glad that i have been through the things that i need to go through to get me where i am now. 60 more years of experience. I wonder what i will be like when i am 50...

2009-02-23T09:27:00.000-08:00

Sunday was a great day, i had the chance to organise the security outing. Though its only a small thing but i thought it was good. As i really felt that we enjoyed ourselves there. Thank God:) Thanks Jamshed for opening up your house for us to use, and you even treated us 5 pizzas and 2 packet of chicken wings and 1 packet of curry puffs.

I did talked to Dwan about my role in security, that he has decided to talk to Kok yew about taking me off as the Outing 2IC and the birthday IC, so that i will not have too much commitment. Though my role in secuirty may not seem important but i believe that in everywhere that we serve in we have to serve with excellence because ultimately you are serving God. In every position that you are in no matter whether you are the IC or not, it is an important position, there is a reason for you or for that position to exist in the first place. Just like how the church is as strong as its congregation, the ministry is only as strong as the members serving in each different position. It is the little things that you do now that will determine the greater things that you will do in the future. Do you think that if i take lightly the position of standing behind the curtain, just because its not a significantly important position, God will empower me to do greater things for Him? Do you entrust someone with 1000 if he cant even keep 50? There you go.

I really thank God for everything that He has done for me, the opportunities that He has given me throughout the years and till now where He has brought me to. It's amazing how He can change things around. I truly believe that greater things are going to happen this year round. Certain things are there to distract but when you know that its not time then you better just stay focus. Don't go for it till God tells you that it is time. God answers every prayer, sometimes He delays it for your good.

2009-02-18T07:36:00.000-08:00

2009-02-16T17:26:00.000-08:00

Seeds were scattered all over the place
Some have fallen on stoney ground
But there was only one that caught his attention
He scooped it up and gave it undivided attention
The seed grew into a beautiful plant
Like any other plant it has it's flaws
But only in his eyes, it was perfect
He continued to take care of it every single day
Time has gone by in a blink of an eye
The plant has grown into a tree
Like any other plant it's flaws are still there
Magnified by it's mass
But after so many years
He has learnt how to appreciate it
Both have met each other's needs
Just by looking at the tree every single day satisfied his need
And the tree was watered, cared for and being loved
The man grew old as time passed by
The tree was still as beautiful as ever

On his bed, he looked out of the window
He thought to himself, that is the most beautiful tree he has ever seen in his life.
Memories began to flood his mind
How he had another one before this
But it died even before it became a plant
He said "But none can compare to this one!"
He knew it was time,
But he just want another glimpse at the tree
Tiredness over took his passion

Ministering in Faith

2009-02-15T21:13:00.000-08:00

He put you where He put you because He wanted to put you there. All of us have to stay put where He puts us until He’s ready to move us. Everybody’s got their burden, just in different areas. Your ministry does matter to God. It is a significant part of the kingdom. What matters is not what anybody else thinks. What matters is, Am I pleasing to God? Can I stand before Him and have Him say, `Well done, thou good and faithful servant. You were believing when you didn’t see it. You were obeying when you didn’t understand it, giving when you didn’t have it, and persevering when you didn’t feel like it and thanking before you got it, and trusting when you didn’t get it.” These all receive their confirmation. That’s the real question. Is my ministry being performed in faith?

Rick Warren

2009-02-15T08:43:00.000-08:00

oh man... today's match was a pity... i got 2 chances on goal and I MISSED BOTH. and my boots.... half way spoil i have to be subbed out... then i used Zhi hong spare boots.... but kind of lost my momentum... was running around midfield doing nothing, basicly chasing the ball up and down field. back were the days when everything was so easy. i guess i lost all my stamina. need to train more.

2009-01-18T07:33:00.000-08:00

Greater things have yet to come. Its only the beginning. There are so many things i want to achieve this year. I need to pray specifically and be persistent in my prayers, i need to have a strong relationship with God. I really need to do well in my studies, so that i can be a good testimony to the people around me, especially my parents. That is a good way to open up their hearts towards God. I need to keep fit and go to the gym regularly haha, for all those who knew me for quite some time, i keep saying i want to go but never really. I need to get my licenses ASAP, really ASAP.

I just feel really excited tonight, because of one phone call i made. That encouraged me to be more discipline, be it in my studies, or the things that i am tasked to do. That i must be a good testimony to the people around me, that my life will begin to encourage and inspire the people around me to do greater things. We are not doing what we are doing for nothing, it is for a greater purpose.

First day of school

2009-01-05T08:55:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of school. And i woke up late, reached school at about 1030am. Not a very good start, i know i know. Tomorrow school is 845am, much much earlier, i must get to school early tomorrow. Well i didnt miss much because the teacher was just going through how to get good grades in the exam and its always the same things they say. Today's lesson was macroeconomics and we did this 2 semesters before so most of the stuff we learn today is the same, its something like a recap. Not too bad for the first day, i understood everything that the teacher said so it was all good.

Today was a good day.

Happy New Year

2009-01-02T01:16:00.000-08:00

wow... its like the second day of the new year already. After a 3 months break from school i just realise school is reopening next week. I really need to do well for my studies this year round, somehow i got inspired in giving a speech on our graduation day and only the best get the opportunity to do that. And if i really want it, then i have to work even more harder this year.

Well i didnt do much on new year's eve, stayed at home because didnt feel like going out haha. too many people too crowded.

Today is a great day, i get to stay at home and relax.

2008-12-07T04:28:00.000-08:00

I really need to prioritize my things. I realise one thing that i am not good at is prioritizing. My security leader addressed this issue before, that i cant please everyone at the same time. There is only one Ben. And i need to know what i want.

Today went for JW service, Dr John is truly a legend hehe. I love the way he preached and the message is a wow. I mean everyone uses that chapter as an offering message but probably no one expounded it like how Dr John did. God's presence was so tangible today, its just awesome.

Before service i found out i had a soccer match today... and Zhi hong has to fetch me back to get my soccer gear. Our team lost 1 - 0 today. We played really well today. I just felt that i can do so much more than what i did today. I want to chase the ball, i want to get the ball first, but my stamina wouldn't let me... nowadays i just get tired so easily. But the second half i picked up a bit of the momentum. Next week.. i am going to go all out.

ICT

2008-11-18T05:49:00.000-08:00

If you guys are wondering why isnt Ben online anymore, its because i have been called back for reservist. Since last friday and it will end on 29 nov. When i reported to my unit 680SIR.... i realise i am placed in a 6 year battalion. And its my first in camp haha. I am the only 21 year old amongst like 27 - 30 year old plus people LOL. But i thank God so much because all my fellow commanders are all so nice. I am currently in platoon 1 section 3. And my section i am suppose to have 6 people but currently i only have like 3. And they are Ye, my M203 gunner, not married currently working as an organiser for events. He organize the musicians that will play for the night and he does the MC. and he organize for some of the celebrities as well. Next i have Fadly who is my LAW gunner, just got married, working as a video producer, currently he has this important project for his company. and lastly i have Stanley Boon Wee, my SAW gunner, he is working as a sales engineer, something to do with lighting.

At first i was really afraid, i was thinking how do i talk to these people, they are all older than me and they don want to be here, who wants to go for reservist haha. I just have to take away my rank and talk to them. Rank doesnt matter anymore, its getting to know your men well that matters. And i find it easy just talking to them like friends. And it doesnt matter how old they are, I still have to take care of them, get them to training, help them with their weapons and stuff. To be a good commander, i need to know my stuff well so that whenever they need help i am able to help them.

Thank God everyone is so nice haha... My CSM gave me off for tomorrow after i take my IPPT tomorrow i can BOOK OUT! WOOHOO.. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS! ASIA CONFERENCE! hahahahahahahahaa. I get to SKIP TRAINING. woohoo! and i get to book in the next morning.

But next week is going to be tougher. I guess i don mind being in this unit after all. Thank God. Even though there is a big age gap... i still fill part of them.

Happy Birthday to Ben

2008-11-11T07:12:00.000-08:00

On saturday i went to meet Weehung, Cailing and David, Libin cant make it because she fell sick. But it was a good day, we went to watch Madagascar 2 and after that we went over to bugis to shop for some stuff. After shopping we head over to a dessert place to have some dessert before we went to have our dinner. I had to leave early so i walked over to Billy Bombers with them sat for a while and left. Went down for security training in expo which lasted till 10.30pm, then went home.

On sunday went for service in the morning till around 4pm and i had to leave because my parents are waiting for me at home to go for dinner. Thanks Jason for celebrating my birthday and the rest of the security people in JW. I got a grey belt as a present which i am able to wear to match my shoes haha. We went over to this farm area in choa chu kang to have dinner, the food there is awesome, we had like satay, pork knuckle, chicken wings, sting ray, thats about it. I ate too much that day. We havent had dinner together for a long time. It was good.

On monday i went over to help out at bendemeer. then after i went over to visit Cailing at dhoby ghaut for a bit then met David at center point. We walked around for a bit and then went over to Somerset mrt to meet Singyee. After that we head down to botak jones opposite cineleisure for dinner. It was good, thanks for the treat David and Singyee. After that we went over to cineleisure to have dessert at Hong Kong cafe. Thanks for the treat again. haha. After that it was quite late so we decided to go home. Hope you guys enjoyed yourselves.

Today, met up with Mich and Vone on my birthday. Apparently Ray was MIA haha and Germ was busy and Ivan was busy too. But even though it was only 2 of yous, i had a great time hope both of you did too, thanks for everything. I liked the bag from Germ, Vone, Mich and Ivan. Really needed it haha... my current bag is like messy and quite old.

Yea we went over to watch DragonHunter over at cine, it was quite funny, it was good. We went over to gloria cafe thingo to change into my new bag, haha and Vone and Mich helped me tidy up my bag and throw stuff away for me LOL. After that went over to the library over at bugis because Mich had to return her books. We went to have our dinner over at some steamboat place called Steamboat Ramen apparently the official opening date was today, it was quite good. We chiong the prawns and the muscles and the shells and the crabs... ok maybe not we just Mich haha. Vone and I like chiong the beef. we ate for like 2 hours plus plus... haha so full... then after we went over to bugis to shop for a bit, we had ice cream after that. went back home after ice cream. It was a good day, i enjoyed my myself i hope you guys did too. thanks.

Well today went pass really fast and before you know it its no longer your birthday haha. 17 more minutes till its over. Alright thats all.

When you think you are on top of the world

2008-11-02T18:34:00.000-08:00

Sometimes in life, you think you are already at your limit. You think you have got it all. You think you have conquered every single thing there is to conquer in life. But before you know it, there is more to it then just that. Before you know it you have already set a boundary for yourself, you have place yourself into a container where you feel so comfortable with. Everything that you need or want is already in that container, there is no need to dig any further. That is what you think, but what God has for you and has prepared for you is far more then what you can think of or imagine.

You will never know what God has prepared for you unless you dig further down.

Job 14:5 Man's days are determined; you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed.

God has set for you a limit that you cannot exceed, there is no reason why you should stay where you are now. For you are never alone. He walks with you.

DANGEROUS!!!!!

2008-10-28T10:51:00.001-07:00

Memories

2008-10-24T08:53:00.001-07:00

lol... my friend in Australia was running through his pictures when he saw these and sent it to me. Wow.... thats me in red, when i was in Australia. My hair was center parting. Yea the second picture because at that period of time i was a big fan of BoA, so my friend went to cut my face and put it there. LOL. we had fun.

Holidays

2008-10-22T11:17:00.000-07:00

Woh... time passes by so fast... its already been 2 weeks since exams. Currently still looking for a job. Today i went to suntec and while i was there i had lunch i had... what is it called again... i really have no idea but it was really nice. haha but the food court there quite expensive. I had a looooooooooooooooong day and I am really tired i should go to sleep now. Good night.

WOOHOO

2008-10-14T09:23:00.000-07:00

Finally the day i have been waiting for... haha. Today after exams went out with Jack, Ivan, Germ, Vone, Mich, Ray, Fiona. We went over to Cine to watch House bunny.. haha not bad for a chick flick. After that the rest went home and i went shopping with Vone and Germ, i left at bout 645pm to go for discipleship meeting at clarke quay. It's been so long since we all went out together, i would say we had a good time.

LAST DAY TOMORROW

2008-10-12T22:43:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO LAST DAY OF EXAMS TOMORROW TIME TO PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to thank God for all my friends who helped me through my exams, Ray, Vone, Germ, Mich, Weehung, Cailing, Libin, MJ. And for all those who prayed for me, thanks Lai yoong for that 3am message haha... thanks Ying Xiu for that morning message. But its not time to relax now. Theres one more exam tomorrow and its hard...

Thank God today's exam was kinda of easy because its like a copy of past year paper and i did it yesterday night thanks to Vone hahahaha. I think its all good.

2 days away from exams

2008-10-07T02:55:00.000-07:00

I just wanna thank God for giving me 1 month to study before exams. It was all planned out really well. All the best to me this thursday. friday monday and tuesday.

Went shopping with Carey and David on saturday to get clothes to wear for sunday service haha. Shop for quite sometime then in the end found the right clothes. After that head down for expo service and celebrated Matthew's birthday. David got him lego at quite a good price at Taka. After service we went over to sembang bedok to eat some prata, its been a long time since i last went there.

Sunday we celebrated Zhi Hong birthday. I just wanna thank God that like everything went quite well even though he was rushing off. We were still able to celebrate and pray for him. Sometimes price doesn't matter when it comes to a birthday present, its whether the person liked it or not. Glad that i got the correct one haha.

Zhi Hong asked me to join the harvest league. Really can't wait to get into a league again, its been like 4 years since i last play for a team. Abit rusty with my skills, probably need to touch up abit soon after my exams.

Singapore Airlines

2008-08-30T10:45:00.000-07:00

Beautiful plane yea? hehe hopefully one day i get to fly them. Once a pilot always a pilot...

Cadet Pilot

This entry-level position is based in Singapore, and is for candidates who display a strong interest in aviation.

REQUIREMENTS

Singapore Citizen, Singapore Permanent Resident or Malaysian Citizen
GCE ‘A’ level, Polytechnic Diploma or Degree. In addition, you must have obtained a minimum of 5 Credits in the GCE ‘O’ level or its equivalent. These must include English, Mathematics and a Science subject, preferably Physics, taken at one sitting
At least 1.65 m in height
Visual acuity of at least 6/60, correctable to 6/6. For candidates who have undergone corrective eye surgery (e.g. Lasik), your pre-surgical visual acuity should not be more than 500 degrees (myopia)
Medically fit

TRAINING

Successful candidates will spend 15 to 17 months on training to acquire an Airline Transport Pilot’s License (ATPL) with Instrument Rating (IR) at Pilot Training Schools in Singapore and overseas. Full board and lodging will be provided. Upon obtaining the flying license, you will undergo further training for 1 to 2 years to become a First Officer.

REMUNERATIONS AND SERVICE BENEFITS

A monthly allowance will be provided during training. On appointment as a First Officer, you will be paid a basic salary and various allowances. Benefits include medical and dental treatment, and discounted travel.

SOT GRADUATION!

2008-08-23T09:21:00.000-07:00

haha in about 11 hrs time i will be on stage. so excited. it is a day we all have been waiting for... awesome

Trinity

2008-08-05T03:18:00.000-07:00

Learning about theology in SOT today. Learning about the trinity. God the Father the Son and the Holy Spirit. Quite confusing if you don't accept the fact that God is 3 but yet there is only 1 God. God is 3 but 1. Hehe. If you try to understand it you will lose your mind. If you try to deny it you will lose your soul. So friends just accept by FAITH. God is 3 but 1. The LORD is one!

Lord, thank You for the things you have done for me. Sometimes, i have neglected the things you have given me, and what You have given, You have the right to take back. But of course there must be a reason why God takes it back, its because its not doing so well and its for our good. I have learned so much Lord, i thank You for bringing me through this because i can say that i deserve it.

Lord i pray that you give me one more chance! Everything will be so different. If its your will let it be done.

Trust in God

2008-08-02T20:28:00.000-07:00

Matt 19:6 "So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate."

Change.

2008-07-29T04:05:00.000-07:00

Change
To change is to risk something, making us feel insecure. Not to change is a bigger risk, though we seldom feel that way. There is no choice but to change. People, however, cannot be motivated to change from the outside. All of our motivation comes from within. Where do people get this motivation to change? Motivation can come in a variety of sources, but the most common one is through pain. For example lets say a woman gained weight, if she was previously in good physical condition, works in a fashion industry and loves to be slim and attractive, she will definitely be motivated to lose the weight. Gaining that weight was obviously painful to her and in order to have that feeling of being attractive and slim again, there is a need for change. Now that is one example of being motivated to change. The response to new information given is another form of motivation to change. Like in school, students are motivated to do well as they learn that failing is not an option to consider. The things that happen in life can be another form of motivation, like for example having a baby, getting married etc. Inspiration by friends or family can also be a form of motivation. Now we come to this form of motivation that is less effective in triggering a change. That is to force someone to change. Like for example, you are at your desk, and your boss comes up to you and says, "Ben, how many times have i told you, no eating in the office, you better change that habit of yours OR ELSE i will have to replace you with someone else. " In this situation, the boss can be a little effective in forcing you to change because they are the ones that pay you. Now you must remember that you have a choice, its either to change your habit or to get another job. Considering the fact that you might take days or even weeks to find another job, or the mortgage you have to pay. Well for this situation, this option is simple i would definitely choose to change. Or i will have to accept the consequences. In the end, your motivation to change something about yourself may come from, perhaps a little because of pain, a little because you're inspired to be a better person, and a little because your spouse would like you to stop that habit. Becoming aware of your primary motivation to change is the best source for setting off on a new path, a new direction in life.

This was what i wrote on december the 6th 2006. Just thought that this applies to my life right now. Unfortunately what motivated me to change is...through pain. I will have to accept the consequences. Friends, please do cherish what you have right now, do not wait until its gone, it might be too late...

I pray... I will keep praying...

Happy 6 months :)

2008-07-20T09:31:00.000-07:00

Hey dear, happy anniversary. Yea we did not have time to celebrate it this weekend. Probably some time this week ya? I just want to say i love you so much.

2008-05-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

Praise the Lord, for He walks with me through the valley of dry bones.
He strengthens me when i am tired, that i am able to walk with Him to the end.
Praise the Lord, no matter what happens, He will always be there for you. Though sometimes we are not skill to understand what God has made what God has plan, we must know its all for good. Thank God.

Work

2008-04-22T00:35:00.000-07:00

Happy anniversary dear, had a great dinner with you :)

Being employed in this job its quite interesting.
I get to serve people, learn techniques of pouring wine. Get to learn the different types of wine, chardonnay (white wine), cabernet sauvignon (red wine), merlot, shiraz etc.
I get to taste the different types of wine, the smell, learn how to enjoy the different wines. Learn to pair wine with food, like chardonnay will go well with salad. Shiraz will go well with pork.

I met a winemaker his name is Luigi Bazzani from Italy has a vineyard in Australia, the Perennes. I am honoured to be 1 of the 4 being taught by him. Tasted 4 types of his wine, one of it is the Estate shiraz tasted quite tannin, smooth to drink not too acidic, very nice. Quite a nice guy won many awards for his wines.

It is a good experience for me being able to work here.

Aishiteru

2008-03-26T07:37:00.000-07:00

I have not seen you for 2 days, really missed you alot. I am happy today that we met up to catch a movie. It was a great movie especially with you hehe...
Hiro was a river to her and yu was the sea to her.... but i can be the ocean for you, no matter what happens my waves will always wash you up close to me, no matter where i go my waves will never leave you behind.
愛してる

Looking forward to seeing you again.

My Dear and me

2008-03-20T08:01:00.000-07:00

Happy 2 months!I met her today at bukit batok, which was a bad place to chill out :S then after went over to woodlands.
We went over to swensens for dinner, we both had baked rice, but mine just tasted not so good but i guess its not the food i am there for :S Its the person i am spending time with =)and it was really really good, had a great time with you.
Looking forward to spending time with you the rest of my life :)